Thursday, November 03, 2005
*and he's off...*
He left early this morning on a 6am flight...feels weird knowing I wont be seeing him for the next 3 wks. Contact will most prob be minimal too seeing he's on an outfield training exercise. Really do hope that he can still sms me...guess I'm feeling this way cuz things at home arent so great. Don't get me wrong I am really grateful that my aunt has taken me in but...its neva quite your home u know. The room I'm in now doesnt even feel like it's mine...and yes it is a temporary measure but it sure doesnt help. I have a piano and a treadmill in my room hopefully that gives u a rough idea of what my room is like. And for some reason, I was sick a while back with the flu...it was going around and God knows why ...she was angry with me. Yes angry with me while I'm battling body aches, fever and feeling like crap. Anyway...after that I finally decided that I'll do whatever it takes to pay for the downpayment first for the flat as F has already contributed a huge chunk from his cpf. I've only been working for a year so as u can see my cpf contribution is peanuts. (not in the NKF way)
And besides if I get this new job, it would be more convenient for me to stay at my new place than where I'm at now...as its only 2 mrt stops away. so prayerfully if all goes well, by the time i get back from Perth in Dec, I will be able to start on the reno for the flat.
Truthfully I don't want to sound like a whinger cuz it's on the borderline of self pity...and that cant be good. So I'm going to try my hardest to stay positive, focus on Him and Him alone and just breathe. Right? right...
He left early this morning on a 6am flight...feels weird knowing I wont be seeing him for the next 3 wks. Contact will most prob be minimal too seeing he's on an outfield training exercise. Really do hope that he can still sms me...guess I'm feeling this way cuz things at home arent so great. Don't get me wrong I am really grateful that my aunt has taken me in but...its neva quite your home u know. The room I'm in now doesnt even feel like it's mine...and yes it is a temporary measure but it sure doesnt help. I have a piano and a treadmill in my room hopefully that gives u a rough idea of what my room is like. And for some reason, I was sick a while back with the flu...it was going around and God knows why ...she was angry with me. Yes angry with me while I'm battling body aches, fever and feeling like crap. Anyway...after that I finally decided that I'll do whatever it takes to pay for the downpayment first for the flat as F has already contributed a huge chunk from his cpf. I've only been working for a year so as u can see my cpf contribution is peanuts. (not in the NKF way)
And besides if I get this new job, it would be more convenient for me to stay at my new place than where I'm at now...as its only 2 mrt stops away. so prayerfully if all goes well, by the time i get back from Perth in Dec, I will be able to start on the reno for the flat.
Truthfully I don't want to sound like a whinger cuz it's on the borderline of self pity...and that cant be good. So I'm going to try my hardest to stay positive, focus on Him and Him alone and just breathe. Right? right...
God give me the strength I need Lord for you are made strong in my weakness...God help me for I am lost without You. I need you Lord..
Amen..
"