My JoURnEY.......

Well today is the day, i mean technically its 9mins past 12 into the 11th of July...so TECHNICALLY....its the day of the DnD...aaaahhhhh....kekeke...jk..jk..Just came bk from rearranging the furniture in church...in our attempt to make it look funky n all. I must say its looking prettygood!!! ;) I mean its definitely vely close to what i envisioned. :) Which is so good!!! Thanx guys for coming tonite to help out...it was much appreciated...i kno i was going around looking kinda stressed but well...its normal...trust me!! :P I guess there was a moment when i was putting things together that i felt this jz wasnt gg to work. For one, no one wld come...cuz ppl forgot or sumthing..n that our deco wasnt coming together...but i must say wif a little faith and help from my trusty comm members...things r looking rather good :) The atmosphere is indeed rather romantic n all kekeke...so for those few couples amongst us...the lighting n all is perfect ;) ok ok il stop!! :P I think u kno what...im jz gg to enjoy the nite...regardless of whether who doesnt turn up. The important thing is the people who did...and those who didnt well..i guess they jz missed out on a nite of fun thats all. I really do think n do believe that the event will be fun n happening...bcuz He will be with us. His hand is upon this event.. no doubt bout it :) And although the numbers r well...less than what i expected its ok. It was neva about the numbers to begin with. The whole point is for those who are willing and want to come ...to jz come n have fun with the rest of the CZ members, to fellowship with one another, eat , drink, dance the nite away :) I guess the reason why i was kinda stressed n worried bout the lack of numbers was the budget issue. We r seriously under the budget as it is...n it seriously looks like we will be n i guess thats why..cuz i really didnt want to touch the church fund for this unless it was absolutely necessary. Lets hope that we still dun have to..God willing :) But i kno in my heart that e'thing will work out jz the way its suppose to :) I jz wana thank u guys for ur support n more than anything ur heart for Him, to serve Him in this. U may not think that ur doing anything important but believe me He knows ur heart and He knows that u r serving Him and thats what is really important. I hope and pray that u will all continue to serve Him in ur chosen ministries.

Nite all n God bless :)

well for the past 2 nites, we have been blessed by Josh's mum's dancing lessons on how to perfect the art of cha cha yes u heard it rite...:) Its so so so much fun like seriously...i've always wanted to take lessons for like all these diff dances...but felt kinda loserish...if theres such a word...if i was to go on my own...kekeke...so yeah im so glad that she taught us all these moves...its so so so kewl!!! But i really wan to learn more thou...i've always been intrsted in like latino dances, rock n roll n some other stuf...oh yeah n she taught us this move called the 'aeroplane' man...its so kewl!!! kekeke...n its jz so much fun really...im so glad that she'll be teaching us all these funky moves on friday :)..thanx josh's mum :)

well...today...a bunch of us wen to get our costumes...kekeke...its gg to be really really kewl to c wat e'one comes as...i mean of those that i kno what they r gg as they r looking absolutely fabulous :) so yeah...should be intrsting ;) anywaz...im trying not to be discourage by the lack of numbers gg and jz trying to stay positive and believe that this will all turn out the way it's suppose to bcuz His hand will be upon it n i jz pray that the ppl will come bcuz of Him, not bcuz of me or bcuz im like threatening e'one if they dun come im gg to start hunting them down...kekeke ...jk jk...:P but yeah i hope that as His words says, 'not by might, not by power but by the spirit'....that e'thing will be rite the way it shld be. I duno what else to do but pray...n pray n pray...for those of u reading this...pls pray for the event too...i tink we r seriously gg to need it :)

Today i jz realised something too...i remembered now why i made a vow to Him, n i guess i lost sight of that for a while...but i guess He reminded me in a rather profound way. You know those 3 words that a guy n gal can say to one another whilst in a r/s...yeah...n u kno how its usually the GUYS who have the prob saying it...well most ok...not all...but i think for me...im the guy in this situation. Dun ask me why...or if its fr my childhood or sumthing...cuz i guess it is n then again its not...i mean...it cld also b the result of a bad r/s...or maybe not...i really duno...cuz even fr the bad r/s ...me n him r actually frens now...so umm...yeah i guess i dun really kno...but i still kno that i have trouble wif saying those 3 words...unless its to God...then well theres no trouble there :) or even to a puppy or sumthing...but as for a guy...well...slight prob there. Dun think im one of those prudish kinda of chicks k...cuz thats not what this is bout...it isn't that im not capable of loving someone...but i suppose i have an issue wif those 3 words. And i guess if i really do love that someone...then i would show him my love in other ways than jz saying those 3 words i guess. But i suppose in time, i would be able to say that to someone...but to me those 3 words r kinda sacred. I guess u wldnt jz say it to any tom, dick or harry...but u've got to mean it ..n i mean REALLY mean it...not jz tink u mean it but know deep down in ur heart u really really really do. That this person has become a part of u n that u care for him/her so much that u dun really kno what ur days r like without him/her. I guess i realise how easy it is for some to jz say those words...bcuz well...they think they mean it or they think they do love that person where in fact they mistaken those feelings for something else. But to me those words mean so much more...n i guess thats why they r so sacred. These ideas r jz how i feel bout the issue i know e'one is diff n e'one has diff attachments to those words. But i do believe that 1 day i will b able to say those wonderful sacred words to someone ...when its the RIGHT someone :) okies got to go sleep pplz...nites all :)

THINK POSITIVE THINK POSITIVE THINK POSITIVE...yes indeed i am i am i am!!...keke well its one of those moments where if u say it long enough u jz mite believe it...:) ok ok..i do i do...i mean well for one...at least we kno there will be food rite :) keke...yeah the catering yes been done...thank God for that!!! Thats a big load off my shoulders i tell ya :) Today me n joos went to get the cloth, and some of the other novelty prizes...kekeke...trust me its kinda kewl :P N to see what other bits n pieces we needed...oh ...n we made a rather delightful discovery at WA Salvage...yes of all places...they sell Mamee there!!! kekeke...for most of u im sure u remember the yummy delightful taste of mamee rite!!! Me n Joo cldnt believe it that they were selling it at WA Salvage...so ummm..keke we bought some for ourselves too keke :P Then we proceeded to get some other things to try n decorate our momentary disco hall (aka...our church) to something that wld make it a memorable nite. It's gg to be a memorable nite either way im sure :) But the whole event is slowly but hopefully surely coming together....Im just gg to continue to pray n have faith...really..i mean i believe rite now thats all i can really do. I can plan n do n all that...but when it comes rite down to it...if His hand is not upon us...nothing we do wld be rite...so ppl pls continue to pray for our event okies. :) anywayz...i need to go do some reading cuz well...my grp members arent too thrilled atm...cuz we r so so so behind in our project...must go do some catching up. ciao.

Well, the DnD is almost here....friday to be exact!!! And im trying not to panick...like really i am...but its not working. See im the sort of person that goes well with schedule, and usually i dun like to leave things to the last min unless it absolutely cant be helped. And well...after being bk from our trip up north, i still feel like nothing is set. For one, there has been absolutely no tix sales....i mean that could be due to the fact that someone forgot to announce it today at church ....and i have this sneaking suspicion that no one actually realises taht its this friday!!..YES PEOPLE....this FRIDAY!!!! my fear is...well...rocking up on the day itself...and only have a handful of ppl there...u see the thing is...catering hasnt been done, lighting and sound hasnt exactly quite come together...the only thing i know FOR SURE...is the fact that Josh's mum will be here tm...thank God for that!!!I guess at the moment its hard for me to see the plan coming into place when nothing has really been set. I'll prob have to start calling up cell leaders to remind their members that its this friday...which means more work, more time which i dun really have atm...seeing my grp project from school is due in like 2 weeks...n i have done absolutely no work for...:( Will probably have to meet up wif my grp members at some stage as wel...lets just hope they dun say fri nite...hahah wldnt that be a laugh!!! ...ok maybe not. But i know right now...there wil be an echo of 'stress less woman!!' ...well im trying...really i am...but im prone to stress when things are nor here nor there. All i can do really is to continue to pray ...and hope for the best i guess. I guess for me i just really wan this to work. To work bcuz of Him and for e'one to have a good time. I guess thats probably why after Yr 12 i stopped having parties and my frens always ask why...well...now they know. Its way too much stress on the heart...kekeke :) I guess i just have to learn to let things go. And let Him take care of things that i have no control over. Yes ....i shall try...:)

Hope u all have a nice lazy sunday arvo :)