Wednesday, June 11, 2003
hi e'one...umm...so shld not be blogging rite now...im running so behind on study!!! but im sure im gg to get an echo of 'Who isnt!!' so anywayz...don't kno why but today has been a really really lazy day for me...have trouble concentrating...which is really bad seeing my exam is on saturday...n my notes r so NOT ready!!..So i guess tonite is gg to be a really really long long nite for me...lots of tea and snack is ahead of me..hehe...
well...like i sed, today has been a pretty much a 'do-nothing' day...which is really bad!! Been thinking of maybe closing this blog...been thinking bout it for a while actually, i mean yeah i kno, its kinda drastic but i guess like wat someone sed, writing in this blog is kinda of a cleansing act, a place where we kinda confess our thoughts and well...blog i guess. Even if it's about things that no one really cares or even maybe we don't really care but we just wan to blog bout it nonetheless. I guess i'm a little scared of confessing something that i dun really wan to admit...and even now i dun tink i really wan to..but i kno that even if i dun say it out loud or write it...God knows and thats kinda wat scares me more than anything else. Because when u tink bout it, ur thoughts, ur feelings, u can never hide it from Him, no matter how much u wan to. U can pretend u don't feel it, u can deny it even wen someone asks u but despite all of that....He knows. And that scares me, because I kno. I guess for some of u reading this ur thinking 'what is she on bout??' n perhaps im kinda speaking in riddles or something...but then again remember i've been reading bout INDUSTRIAL RELATIONS for the past 9 hrs...so can u blame me if my sentence don't quite make sense!!! hahaha ok anywaz, the point is I wan to do the right thing, and i want to do the right thing by Him, so Im asking...'Please Lord, Please help me, give me the strength for it is only thru Your strength that i can do this.' right now this verse keeps popping into my head, 'i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me', so im holding onto that for dear life. Maybe im just dilarious from reading bout the economic, social and legal dimensions of employment relationships, yes thats my stupid essay topic, anywaz i guess im the only who knows wat im really talking about huh...anywaz..sorri guys...hope ur having a better day than me :)
Good luck for all your exams ok...:)
well...like i sed, today has been a pretty much a 'do-nothing' day...which is really bad!! Been thinking of maybe closing this blog...been thinking bout it for a while actually, i mean yeah i kno, its kinda drastic but i guess like wat someone sed, writing in this blog is kinda of a cleansing act, a place where we kinda confess our thoughts and well...blog i guess. Even if it's about things that no one really cares or even maybe we don't really care but we just wan to blog bout it nonetheless. I guess i'm a little scared of confessing something that i dun really wan to admit...and even now i dun tink i really wan to..but i kno that even if i dun say it out loud or write it...God knows and thats kinda wat scares me more than anything else. Because when u tink bout it, ur thoughts, ur feelings, u can never hide it from Him, no matter how much u wan to. U can pretend u don't feel it, u can deny it even wen someone asks u but despite all of that....He knows. And that scares me, because I kno. I guess for some of u reading this ur thinking 'what is she on bout??' n perhaps im kinda speaking in riddles or something...but then again remember i've been reading bout INDUSTRIAL RELATIONS for the past 9 hrs...so can u blame me if my sentence don't quite make sense!!! hahaha ok anywaz, the point is I wan to do the right thing, and i want to do the right thing by Him, so Im asking...'Please Lord, Please help me, give me the strength for it is only thru Your strength that i can do this.' right now this verse keeps popping into my head, 'i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me', so im holding onto that for dear life. Maybe im just dilarious from reading bout the economic, social and legal dimensions of employment relationships, yes thats my stupid essay topic, anywaz i guess im the only who knows wat im really talking about huh...anywaz..sorri guys...hope ur having a better day than me :)
Good luck for all your exams ok...:)
Monday, June 09, 2003
Couldnt think of a title for this entry...oh well...have been having trouble with blogger...not sure why but it wouldnt let me access my blog...anyway...finally got it..:)
well been meaning to blog since saturday...thats how long it took...well on saturday, i went ROCKCLIMBING...yes u read correctly...rockclimbing!!! ohmigosh...yes...me...afraid of heights...gg rockclimbing..hehe...did i mention to say it's obviously not on REAL rocks..hehee...it's one of those wall ones u kno...n its not very high..like maybe 10ft..i guess..or less...so thats prob why i didnt freak out too much...n i must say most of the time i didnt quite make it all the way to the top to really freak out anywayz...trust me u tink its easy climbing rocks...its not!!!...hahaha...i mean at first i was like oh man...this is gg to be hard ...cuz like each wall is at a different angle so to make it easier each time...and by bout the third wall, i couldnt make it...it jz wasn't happening...like i wld get to bout the middle...n thats it!! hehehe...n i wld be like pls let me down!!! hahaha...well anywaz i did have fun cuz it was something new, something different...i've always liked trying new stuff...even if i kno deep down im probably petrified...i refuse to let my fear take hold of me. i believe that in order to know what something feels like you've got to try it right!! And even if it's to do with something u kno u have a fear of...you never know what it's like til u try it. So im glad i went...even if i was momentarily scared out of my pants...im still glad i tried something i normally wouldnt do...like they say, 'what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger right?'...right.
anywayz...well we just had our very first DnD comm meeting yesterday and it went pretty well...or so i thought. I mean we came up with the theme of masquerade which is really really kewl...cuz actually for my 21st i wanted to make it a masquerade ball...but it didn't quite happen cuz there wasn't enough time to plan the whole thing so i was kinda glad wen stan proposed the idea. We had settled on the idea of a masquerade and also started to plan on food, deco and other bits and pieces...until i received a msg from one of my comm members telling me that some people weren't too keen on the idea of dressing up and that it didn't really suit the culture of our church and that maybe we should have something like a PJs movie marathon. Needless to say i was rather shocked to hear that ppl weren't interested in the idea of having a DnD cuz i remember last year e'one had a blast...or maybe that was just me?? i duno...i mean i really thought that people had fun at the DnD last year cuz it was something different, normally for church events it would be like a potluck, or just a gathering or camp. Nothing like a DnD...so i figured hey u kno it seems like quite a nice tradition to hold on to...and also a good way for campus to come together and just have FUN!!! i mean you kno if people really dun wan to wear masks thats fine...for those who do thats great...because it isn't about who dresses the best and who doesn't it's bout getting our fellow christian brothers and sisters together ....and fellowshipping with one another, talking, eating, dancing and just having fun. The idea of a theme is so that well...to jazz it up a little thats all...its not really seriously like if u dun rock up in a mask that...oh no...bad bad person...i mean...just as long as people dun rock up in jeans n t-shirts...i will be really happy :) i guess im just feeling a little discouraged...and its not just this one time either u kno...from the very beginning it already seems like people were against the idea of a DnD and i just dun get why. i mean i guess if people really cant be bothered about it then there really isn't any point for me to be planning this event. Im not being sour about it or watever, i guess im just a little disappointed that's all...ok maybe a lot..but i guess it's also because well i was kinda looking forward to this and planning this with the group of people who have so kindly volunteered their time to be on the comm to help me with this event. And i truly imagine this event to be a tradition that FCC would uphold. Maybe it's just a dream, and maybe it's just my dream, but i believe that this event, like any other event should be one where we come together in honour of Him and to unite together and enjoy ourselves, do something different and have fun. But maybe it's just not meant to be ...i duno...
oh i jz received an email back from Lou,..hehe she loved the masquerade idea...:) so glad to hear that...but yeah she did say that if we did change our mind to the movie marathon idea she wouldnt be too keen to have it at church...rather at someone's house...which would be rather difficult to find i must say...unless someone has a really huge house n doesnt mind bout 40 ppl coming ova to sleep n watch movies?? but yeah she kinda said its up to me and to also kind of have a survey ...but she recommend it to be afta exams as ppl r in a stressy mood atm which i agree...so yeah maybe shall contemplate afta exams...but wil definitely talk to my comm members.
ummm....it's kinda of nice to have a reassuring response from Lou, cuz well her opinion obviously matters a great deal to me...and i guess with this...i can only play it by ear for now...and see what happens.
thats all folks...im tired, getting a headache...and need to study...til laters
well been meaning to blog since saturday...thats how long it took...well on saturday, i went ROCKCLIMBING...yes u read correctly...rockclimbing!!! ohmigosh...yes...me...afraid of heights...gg rockclimbing..hehe...did i mention to say it's obviously not on REAL rocks..hehee...it's one of those wall ones u kno...n its not very high..like maybe 10ft..i guess..or less...so thats prob why i didnt freak out too much...n i must say most of the time i didnt quite make it all the way to the top to really freak out anywayz...trust me u tink its easy climbing rocks...its not!!!...hahaha...i mean at first i was like oh man...this is gg to be hard ...cuz like each wall is at a different angle so to make it easier each time...and by bout the third wall, i couldnt make it...it jz wasn't happening...like i wld get to bout the middle...n thats it!! hehehe...n i wld be like pls let me down!!! hahaha...well anywaz i did have fun cuz it was something new, something different...i've always liked trying new stuff...even if i kno deep down im probably petrified...i refuse to let my fear take hold of me. i believe that in order to know what something feels like you've got to try it right!! And even if it's to do with something u kno u have a fear of...you never know what it's like til u try it. So im glad i went...even if i was momentarily scared out of my pants...im still glad i tried something i normally wouldnt do...like they say, 'what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger right?'...right.
anywayz...well we just had our very first DnD comm meeting yesterday and it went pretty well...or so i thought. I mean we came up with the theme of masquerade which is really really kewl...cuz actually for my 21st i wanted to make it a masquerade ball...but it didn't quite happen cuz there wasn't enough time to plan the whole thing so i was kinda glad wen stan proposed the idea. We had settled on the idea of a masquerade and also started to plan on food, deco and other bits and pieces...until i received a msg from one of my comm members telling me that some people weren't too keen on the idea of dressing up and that it didn't really suit the culture of our church and that maybe we should have something like a PJs movie marathon. Needless to say i was rather shocked to hear that ppl weren't interested in the idea of having a DnD cuz i remember last year e'one had a blast...or maybe that was just me?? i duno...i mean i really thought that people had fun at the DnD last year cuz it was something different, normally for church events it would be like a potluck, or just a gathering or camp. Nothing like a DnD...so i figured hey u kno it seems like quite a nice tradition to hold on to...and also a good way for campus to come together and just have FUN!!! i mean you kno if people really dun wan to wear masks thats fine...for those who do thats great...because it isn't about who dresses the best and who doesn't it's bout getting our fellow christian brothers and sisters together ....and fellowshipping with one another, talking, eating, dancing and just having fun. The idea of a theme is so that well...to jazz it up a little thats all...its not really seriously like if u dun rock up in a mask that...oh no...bad bad person...i mean...just as long as people dun rock up in jeans n t-shirts...i will be really happy :) i guess im just feeling a little discouraged...and its not just this one time either u kno...from the very beginning it already seems like people were against the idea of a DnD and i just dun get why. i mean i guess if people really cant be bothered about it then there really isn't any point for me to be planning this event. Im not being sour about it or watever, i guess im just a little disappointed that's all...ok maybe a lot..but i guess it's also because well i was kinda looking forward to this and planning this with the group of people who have so kindly volunteered their time to be on the comm to help me with this event. And i truly imagine this event to be a tradition that FCC would uphold. Maybe it's just a dream, and maybe it's just my dream, but i believe that this event, like any other event should be one where we come together in honour of Him and to unite together and enjoy ourselves, do something different and have fun. But maybe it's just not meant to be ...i duno...
oh i jz received an email back from Lou,..hehe she loved the masquerade idea...:) so glad to hear that...but yeah she did say that if we did change our mind to the movie marathon idea she wouldnt be too keen to have it at church...rather at someone's house...which would be rather difficult to find i must say...unless someone has a really huge house n doesnt mind bout 40 ppl coming ova to sleep n watch movies?? but yeah she kinda said its up to me and to also kind of have a survey ...but she recommend it to be afta exams as ppl r in a stressy mood atm which i agree...so yeah maybe shall contemplate afta exams...but wil definitely talk to my comm members.
ummm....it's kinda of nice to have a reassuring response from Lou, cuz well her opinion obviously matters a great deal to me...and i guess with this...i can only play it by ear for now...and see what happens.
thats all folks...im tired, getting a headache...and need to study...til laters
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