My JoURnEY.......

wow its been a really really long time since i last blog...guess ive just been busy..post grad is a killer man!!! sigh...oh well i guess i have to just manage my time beta??? haha yeah right...anywaz...i guess recently i've been feeling quite good in the sense im just happy in general i mean besides the whole assignments and exam due like really really soon. but other than that i guess its been good for me :) been going thru some emotional stuff..i mean just sorting it thru u kno which is good cuz i guess my head is clearer now n things r more clear too. my recent decision to change cell reallly was not an easy decision for me...it took me a really really long time to get there...and i guess well i tink i made the right decision. i've been praying about it for a long time and i feel that thats where God wants me right now. I'm making new frens wif the nedlands grp which is really nice cuz i didnt really kno them before...n i really do feel like its good to break the cycle of murd ppl staying wif murd ppl instead of mixing arnd a little wif e'one. but yeah its been good. the other problem i seem to be having with right now is trust. the ability to trust ppl i guess..the thing is i trust God and sometimes it is enough but at times ...i find it so hard to trust others. i guess when i do reach that point of trusting that someone, something happens to negate that. and im not sure if its God trying to tell me something bout that person or if its just me...in the sense like im just not a very good judge of character?? im not really sure which is which but i guess il just have to wait and learn to hear His voice. during this whole time..the one thing i really learn to do is to seek Him.i guess for a while i was looking towards others to help me make sense of things when in fact all i really need to do is to seek Him and no one else. and it jz occur to me that i've just been really really wrong in that area to not seek Him in e'thing. i kno i still have that fear of not trusting ppl but i guess once i learn to trust Him, He will lead me to trust others. well thats the theory im gg wif anyway..hehe :) okie its getting late....need to sleep...me insomniac...oh well...take care all :)