My JoURnEY.......

Suppose to be doing some research...but well u know me...hehe...oh well. Anywaz...today was kinda a lazy day for me which is kinda nice...dun get too much of those days anymore...sadly :( Well, was checking some stuff out cuz yeah Di was jz reminding me as to when my exact date was that my umm....singlehood thingy-mi-jig wld end...i got it confused wif my anniversary with my ex...ahahaha..yes that is kinda farni...well they were close together mah so u kno me...memory loss n all..but thank goodness i actuallywrote it down somewhere...so basically i have 9 more days to go. Umm...n yes Di its a sat...so yees....im ALL urs..ahahaha...so i thot of the place for dinner k...u go tink of the ummm...'activity' ahahaha ;) Well today i was just reading through some stuff i wrote a long long time ago ...n wow...i must say...although u wld think 6 mths is not really that long rite..? which i mean technically it isn't...but it sure feels long. But i realised s'thing as i was reading thru wat i wrote...such a long time ago...how different things are...i mean different in the sense for the better i guess. I am a different person than i was back then, I've learnt a lot...n then again...not all good...but not all bad either :) But more than anything...i guess the most important lesson i learnt was Him. Closer to Him, relying on Him, listening to Him, obeying Him, loving Him, and trusting Him. I tink it's such an amazing feeling when u realise that you've grown and that you've grown in Him. Im just so thankful for e'thing that He's done in my life, for being such an awesome God, for really showing me who's boss..hehe. Im just sooooo grateful, and i know that no amount would ever be enuf to repay Him, but i know this. Im so thankful for all that He has shown me His way, for moulding me, for leading me, for loving me n for strengthening me. I know there are times where i feel like i cant do it but He's there, holding me...without even me knowing it.

I know that this vow thingy isnt for e'one n frankly, i never thot it wld be for me either. But it doesnt mean that oh u kno, afta the 20th, it means im free n that im gg to go date the next guy i meet. It isn't about that, it's about knowing wat u want, and knowing who u are. And I rather wait for many years to meet the right guy, then to go right now n find someone n for him to be the wrong guy. Don't get me wrong, being attached has many benefits keke ;) but i guess i realise this about myself during this time, i truly truly love my independence...i really do...but i do miss the whole taking care of someone...n having tat someone take care of me too. And yes, i know in time it will happen...God willing hehe :) But i guess for now, Im happy to be where i am, cuz i know there's always a reason why we are where we are rite now in life. The experiences that we go thru each n every day no matter how big or how small it may be is to help shape us, and refine us. To help us be more like Him...and i thank God that He is an all-knowing God.

okies...shld try n get bk to do some work...cheerioz all...take care...:)
God bless.