My JoURnEY.......

Well, just came home from watching Tears of the Sun starring Bruce Willis and some others...keke...anywayz...the storyline is kinda similar to something of Saving Private Ryan where a platoon of soldiers go into enemy lines to retrieve a civilian...an American of cos :P so yeah...but the scene in this movie was set in Nigeria. The story kinda of impacted me a lot...it made me really really sad...I guess it got me thinking about what Mel sed bout "its a sad day for humanity" and how it has indeed become such a cliche. There was this one scene where one of the village girl was being tortured and maimed by a Rebel soldier. Her young infant had died and its cold body laid somewhere in the dirt. I will never forget how much pain she must have been in. Yes it's a movie, yes it's being exaggerated by HOllywood but do not be mistaken to think that this isn't happening somewhere out there in the real world because it is. So many women and children are being caught in the cross fire of some pathetic, insane civil war because some idiot in their government couldn't be honest and couldn't lead the people. For me i just felt such pain ...I duno...maybe cuz I'm a woman too and my God, to see your child die infront of you, I wont even attempt to fathom what that must feel like. BUt I guess what really hit me was that this wasn't just a show anymore, it no longer became some Hollywood fantasy, this WAS real!! It is happening somewhere out there. On my way home i prayed, i prayed that God will help me to somehow help those out there like that mother, like those children who have lost their parent, lost everything that ever meant anything to them. I don't know how or what to do but i do hope that i can someday, somehow. What really amazed me out of all this,...well actually i shouldnt say amazed cuz it really shouldnt amaze me at all is that at the end of it all, the fighting, the death, the pain, this one character still thank God, she still blessed one of the soldiers (a.k.a Bruce Willis) for saving her life n the lives of her companions. To know that God isn't forgotten amidst all this chaos just goes to show how amazing God is. And that even they, people who have gone through such hardship and pain could still give thanks and praise to Him, how can WE not?? Anyway i just want to encourage all of you to reach out to those around you, even if we cant' really do much for those in the far away countries, let's start the compassion here, in our own hearts, own homes and own community.

On a slightly different note, went to the doc's the other day, ummm...had a blood test..yucks!!! And going for an ultrasound on monday...man it's taking forever...well maybe not forever...but close to it. I just wana know whats wrong u kno cuz yeah I know something isn't rite...but the not knowing is kinda excruciating. Anyway, I just really hope it's nothing bad or nothing more than an ulcer which can be treated for. oh well, the only thing i can do is just keep praying i guess. And hope for the best :) Alrighty shld try get some sleep huh... God bless :)