Friday, August 15, 2003
Doing my preparation for teaching the kids on Sunday, I duno Im kinda really nervous bout it. I mean, it's not that I havent taught the kids before but it was alwayz just my kids u kno, my group, not both. But the system has just changed as many of you would have heard from Uncle Peter's "mini sermon"...kekeke...but yeah n man can i just say it's not easy being a kid!!! kekeke...but i duno...kids have a way of asking you questions that can really stump you. And I've never been any good at standing in front of a group talking either. Sigh...well...I guess all i can do is my best and hope God will do the rest kekeke :P
Been thinking a while about dropping one of the ministries Im in. Being in 3 has kinda taken its toll and now especially with the Children's Church increasing the workload for teachers, I'm finding it a little hard next year when my work load in school will be slightly more. I love being in the worship ministry, I love worshipping Him, I feel like thats one of the few times where it really is just me and Him alone. No one else is in the room it's just me and God talking and me just simply worshipping and giving Him thanks through song and words. As for the leadership ministry, well I do see myself involved in that because it does concern the CZ and i know that I really do wana help out in the CZ. Hence that only leaves the Childrens church. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids i really really do. It has nothing to do with them...but i realised that as much as i love serving Him and want to do so, i cant split myself 3 ways. I wouldnt really be committing myself, nor giving my best to any of the ministries. You have no idea how much i love my group...they really are so adorable :) I guess they all are when they are 6-7 years old keke...but yeah just the other day whilst i was trying to teach them that God is with you everywhere you go...a memory verse they are suppose to know. We sort of played a game...you kno marco polo, it's sort of like that but instead, one of the kids is blindfolded and has to find a bible, the closer they are, the louder the kids will shout. Anwayz in the midst of trying to get them organised, whilst one of the younger boys ran off with my bible...hahaha...man...I was yelling after him to come back, one of the girls, Esther, she just threw her arms around me and wouldnt let go. And whilst being in the midst of getting my bible back...i didnt really notice what she did. But later when I thot about it, I realised how much I loved that. To be so close to them and to just really love them. And yes, as some say kids are fine as long as they arent yours. But with some of these kids, I have to say i really do love them. Not so much like my own but maybe like a younger sibling kind. And I know I will really miss them next year. You might think, well if i love them so much why dun i just keep teaching? I gues becuz i realised that I have to choose, I can't keep spreading myself out like this, I have to make a decision like e'thing else. I have to choose where my passion or where my path is to serve Him truly. Being in these 3 ministries is great, but if im serving Him without really wanting to or without my heart being in it...then i guess there really isn't any point. And I just don't see myself having the emotional, physical and spiritual capability to last. I really do hope I'm making the right choice, I will continue to pray bout it until I let the others know bout my decision.
Just came back from dinner with my cell, we went to sparrows...n yes it was my first time and yes...i've already got the wide-eye response of "REALLY!!" n yes let me jz repeat it in case you didnt hear...it was my first time!!! :P But it was yummy thou :) Then some of us went bowling...kekeke...can i just say i normally sux at bowling...like seriously!!! my right thumb alwayz kinda collapses on me by the end of the first round. But Im soooooo happy to say that this time...my thumb stood well upon the challenge hehe :) And let me jz say to a fren of mine (matosh)...jz cuz i whooped ur butt...kekeke....my bowling style is fine ok!!!! There is nothing wrong with it!!! I may not be as classy as SOME ppl mite think...but hey...the score says it all!!! hahahahaha :P Anwayz...I realised how much fun i had :) It was nice. :)
Alrighty...shall TRY to get some shuteye....not that il be sleeping that early but yeah...God bless :)
Have a splendid day tomorrow e'one!!!
Been thinking a while about dropping one of the ministries Im in. Being in 3 has kinda taken its toll and now especially with the Children's Church increasing the workload for teachers, I'm finding it a little hard next year when my work load in school will be slightly more. I love being in the worship ministry, I love worshipping Him, I feel like thats one of the few times where it really is just me and Him alone. No one else is in the room it's just me and God talking and me just simply worshipping and giving Him thanks through song and words. As for the leadership ministry, well I do see myself involved in that because it does concern the CZ and i know that I really do wana help out in the CZ. Hence that only leaves the Childrens church. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids i really really do. It has nothing to do with them...but i realised that as much as i love serving Him and want to do so, i cant split myself 3 ways. I wouldnt really be committing myself, nor giving my best to any of the ministries. You have no idea how much i love my group...they really are so adorable :) I guess they all are when they are 6-7 years old keke...but yeah just the other day whilst i was trying to teach them that God is with you everywhere you go...a memory verse they are suppose to know. We sort of played a game...you kno marco polo, it's sort of like that but instead, one of the kids is blindfolded and has to find a bible, the closer they are, the louder the kids will shout. Anwayz in the midst of trying to get them organised, whilst one of the younger boys ran off with my bible...hahaha...man...I was yelling after him to come back, one of the girls, Esther, she just threw her arms around me and wouldnt let go. And whilst being in the midst of getting my bible back...i didnt really notice what she did. But later when I thot about it, I realised how much I loved that. To be so close to them and to just really love them. And yes, as some say kids are fine as long as they arent yours. But with some of these kids, I have to say i really do love them. Not so much like my own but maybe like a younger sibling kind. And I know I will really miss them next year. You might think, well if i love them so much why dun i just keep teaching? I gues becuz i realised that I have to choose, I can't keep spreading myself out like this, I have to make a decision like e'thing else. I have to choose where my passion or where my path is to serve Him truly. Being in these 3 ministries is great, but if im serving Him without really wanting to or without my heart being in it...then i guess there really isn't any point. And I just don't see myself having the emotional, physical and spiritual capability to last. I really do hope I'm making the right choice, I will continue to pray bout it until I let the others know bout my decision.
Just came back from dinner with my cell, we went to sparrows...n yes it was my first time and yes...i've already got the wide-eye response of "REALLY!!" n yes let me jz repeat it in case you didnt hear...it was my first time!!! :P But it was yummy thou :) Then some of us went bowling...kekeke...can i just say i normally sux at bowling...like seriously!!! my right thumb alwayz kinda collapses on me by the end of the first round. But Im soooooo happy to say that this time...my thumb stood well upon the challenge hehe :) And let me jz say to a fren of mine (matosh)...jz cuz i whooped ur butt...kekeke....my bowling style is fine ok!!!! There is nothing wrong with it!!! I may not be as classy as SOME ppl mite think...but hey...the score says it all!!! hahahahaha :P Anwayz...I realised how much fun i had :) It was nice. :)
Alrighty...shall TRY to get some shuteye....not that il be sleeping that early but yeah...God bless :)
Have a splendid day tomorrow e'one!!!
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