Wednesday, July 09, 2003
well for the past 2 nites, we have been blessed by Josh's mum's dancing lessons on how to perfect the art of cha cha yes u heard it rite...:) Its so so so much fun like seriously...i've always wanted to take lessons for like all these diff dances...but felt kinda loserish...if theres such a word...if i was to go on my own...kekeke...so yeah im so glad that she taught us all these moves...its so so so kewl!!! But i really wan to learn more thou...i've always been intrsted in like latino dances, rock n roll n some other stuf...oh yeah n she taught us this move called the 'aeroplane' man...its so kewl!!! kekeke...n its jz so much fun really...im so glad that she'll be teaching us all these funky moves on friday :)..thanx josh's mum :)
well...today...a bunch of us wen to get our costumes...kekeke...its gg to be really really kewl to c wat e'one comes as...i mean of those that i kno what they r gg as they r looking absolutely fabulous :) so yeah...should be intrsting ;) anywaz...im trying not to be discourage by the lack of numbers gg and jz trying to stay positive and believe that this will all turn out the way it's suppose to bcuz His hand will be upon it n i jz pray that the ppl will come bcuz of Him, not bcuz of me or bcuz im like threatening e'one if they dun come im gg to start hunting them down...kekeke ...jk jk...:P but yeah i hope that as His words says, 'not by might, not by power but by the spirit'....that e'thing will be rite the way it shld be. I duno what else to do but pray...n pray n pray...for those of u reading this...pls pray for the event too...i tink we r seriously gg to need it :)
Today i jz realised something too...i remembered now why i made a vow to Him, n i guess i lost sight of that for a while...but i guess He reminded me in a rather profound way. You know those 3 words that a guy n gal can say to one another whilst in a r/s...yeah...n u kno how its usually the GUYS who have the prob saying it...well most ok...not all...but i think for me...im the guy in this situation. Dun ask me why...or if its fr my childhood or sumthing...cuz i guess it is n then again its not...i mean...it cld also b the result of a bad r/s...or maybe not...i really duno...cuz even fr the bad r/s ...me n him r actually frens now...so umm...yeah i guess i dun really kno...but i still kno that i have trouble wif saying those 3 words...unless its to God...then well theres no trouble there :) or even to a puppy or sumthing...but as for a guy...well...slight prob there. Dun think im one of those prudish kinda of chicks k...cuz thats not what this is bout...it isn't that im not capable of loving someone...but i suppose i have an issue wif those 3 words. And i guess if i really do love that someone...then i would show him my love in other ways than jz saying those 3 words i guess. But i suppose in time, i would be able to say that to someone...but to me those 3 words r kinda sacred. I guess u wldnt jz say it to any tom, dick or harry...but u've got to mean it ..n i mean REALLY mean it...not jz tink u mean it but know deep down in ur heart u really really really do. That this person has become a part of u n that u care for him/her so much that u dun really kno what ur days r like without him/her. I guess i realise how easy it is for some to jz say those words...bcuz well...they think they mean it or they think they do love that person where in fact they mistaken those feelings for something else. But to me those words mean so much more...n i guess thats why they r so sacred. These ideas r jz how i feel bout the issue i know e'one is diff n e'one has diff attachments to those words. But i do believe that 1 day i will b able to say those wonderful sacred words to someone ...when its the RIGHT someone :) okies got to go sleep pplz...nites all :)
well...today...a bunch of us wen to get our costumes...kekeke...its gg to be really really kewl to c wat e'one comes as...i mean of those that i kno what they r gg as they r looking absolutely fabulous :) so yeah...should be intrsting ;) anywaz...im trying not to be discourage by the lack of numbers gg and jz trying to stay positive and believe that this will all turn out the way it's suppose to bcuz His hand will be upon it n i jz pray that the ppl will come bcuz of Him, not bcuz of me or bcuz im like threatening e'one if they dun come im gg to start hunting them down...kekeke ...jk jk...:P but yeah i hope that as His words says, 'not by might, not by power but by the spirit'....that e'thing will be rite the way it shld be. I duno what else to do but pray...n pray n pray...for those of u reading this...pls pray for the event too...i tink we r seriously gg to need it :)
Today i jz realised something too...i remembered now why i made a vow to Him, n i guess i lost sight of that for a while...but i guess He reminded me in a rather profound way. You know those 3 words that a guy n gal can say to one another whilst in a r/s...yeah...n u kno how its usually the GUYS who have the prob saying it...well most ok...not all...but i think for me...im the guy in this situation. Dun ask me why...or if its fr my childhood or sumthing...cuz i guess it is n then again its not...i mean...it cld also b the result of a bad r/s...or maybe not...i really duno...cuz even fr the bad r/s ...me n him r actually frens now...so umm...yeah i guess i dun really kno...but i still kno that i have trouble wif saying those 3 words...unless its to God...then well theres no trouble there :) or even to a puppy or sumthing...but as for a guy...well...slight prob there. Dun think im one of those prudish kinda of chicks k...cuz thats not what this is bout...it isn't that im not capable of loving someone...but i suppose i have an issue wif those 3 words. And i guess if i really do love that someone...then i would show him my love in other ways than jz saying those 3 words i guess. But i suppose in time, i would be able to say that to someone...but to me those 3 words r kinda sacred. I guess u wldnt jz say it to any tom, dick or harry...but u've got to mean it ..n i mean REALLY mean it...not jz tink u mean it but know deep down in ur heart u really really really do. That this person has become a part of u n that u care for him/her so much that u dun really kno what ur days r like without him/her. I guess i realise how easy it is for some to jz say those words...bcuz well...they think they mean it or they think they do love that person where in fact they mistaken those feelings for something else. But to me those words mean so much more...n i guess thats why they r so sacred. These ideas r jz how i feel bout the issue i know e'one is diff n e'one has diff attachments to those words. But i do believe that 1 day i will b able to say those wonderful sacred words to someone ...when its the RIGHT someone :) okies got to go sleep pplz...nites all :)
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