Monday, June 16, 2003
wow...been a while since i blogged...hehe...ummmmm....been bz..doing nothing ...hahaha...yes the beauty of finishing exams..!!! (followed by an echo of "Shuddap lah") hehehe...ok ok il try to not rub it in...but come on guys...i have a TRIMESTER unit...how much fun do u tink im really gg to have?? anywaz...the past couple of days i've just been shopping shopping n....shopping hehe...its called a much-needed retail therapy :)...found my boots though!!! woohoo...hehehe...its the knee-high ones i've been like looking for...n its real leather...AND wait...theres more!!! hehehe..i got it on sale...hehee yay!!! ok il stop gg on bout my boots.
Well, my paper on saturday was....not that great...i mean i really did do the best that i could but well...lets just say the couple of hrs before my exams was NOT good...sort of had a thing wif my mum jz before i went for my exams...perfect timing isnt it!! but yeah wat can u do rite?? So all that i knew to do was to pray...pray that He will be with me during my exams...and to help me to be able to focus wats at hand n not dwell on things i cannot change. And being the faithful God that He is...He did :) I really thank God for everything that i have, for everything that i achieve because i give all glory and praise to Him, without Him i dun tink i would have the strength or the ability to do wat i do. Thank you God, Thank you for being the amazing and awesome God that you are...thank You for Your love, Your eternal love...thank You for being my light when theres darkness all around me, for being the only one who understands me better than i understand myself.
been trying to tink wat am i doing with my life?? i mean we all have to really think bout that at some point in our lives rite? well..i guess i feel i should be doing more u kno..i mean yeah i wish i could end world hunger n all that but well...thats not a mission i can do on my own..:) but yeah been tinking bout that...and i realised...i dun really have an answer. this isn't one of those moppy, self-depreciation time but i really do tink that we have to think bout these things and i guess ive kinda hit the 'fork in the road' u kno...oh well i guess i have a bit of time to tink bout it rite...:) I use to think that its all in our attitudes...actually i still think that...and so i've decided to look at it all in a positive frame of mind...well im gg to try really really hard and... just believe. :) n matosh, thanks i am gg to try n look at the simple things in life...to stop complicating things for myself...well trying to at least :) and to ur question if a guy n gal can just be frens...well i think definitely...but i guess there still needs to be a line drawn...cuz yeah it is kinda true that guys and girls can misread certain things...but the thing is...the one thing that really sticks out in my mind is what someone once said to me....'marry your bestfriend, not your boyfriend' which i guess works for guys too ...'marry ur bestfriend, not your girlfriend'. when she said that to me, i didnt quite get what she meant...and she said, well...u should be marrying your bestfriend, someone you can talk to, laugh with, cry with and just be YOURSELF. And i will always remember that...so i guess different ppl have different ideas on that u kno...and i've heard many stories as well where guys fall for their girl best-friend so i guess this is a grey area where there can be no 'real' definition, its up to individuals...:)
have u ever felt like u just werent meant to feel a certain way but u do nonetheless...then u start to wonder...is this God's way of testing me?? i duno...thats how i kinda feel atm...that God's testing me but i dun really kno if im gg nuts or wat u kno...have u ever felt so bad bout feeling so good??ok sorri..not making sense once again...but yeah...im happy bcuz He has blessed me with good friends and well for another specific reason but i feel bad cuz im not allowed to...kinda...ummm...aiyah ok its getting late...cant make it anymore...brain shutting dowwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..................hehehe...
sigh....got to start doing work soon...man!!! this is so sad....but im gg to take it easy for a while...dun care lah...heheh...bad i kno but really need to take a bit of a break hey...:P
Good luck u guys for those of u having exams...u guys are gg to do well...simply because He is behind u alwayz :)
nites all :)
Well, my paper on saturday was....not that great...i mean i really did do the best that i could but well...lets just say the couple of hrs before my exams was NOT good...sort of had a thing wif my mum jz before i went for my exams...perfect timing isnt it!! but yeah wat can u do rite?? So all that i knew to do was to pray...pray that He will be with me during my exams...and to help me to be able to focus wats at hand n not dwell on things i cannot change. And being the faithful God that He is...He did :) I really thank God for everything that i have, for everything that i achieve because i give all glory and praise to Him, without Him i dun tink i would have the strength or the ability to do wat i do. Thank you God, Thank you for being the amazing and awesome God that you are...thank You for Your love, Your eternal love...thank You for being my light when theres darkness all around me, for being the only one who understands me better than i understand myself.
been trying to tink wat am i doing with my life?? i mean we all have to really think bout that at some point in our lives rite? well..i guess i feel i should be doing more u kno..i mean yeah i wish i could end world hunger n all that but well...thats not a mission i can do on my own..:) but yeah been tinking bout that...and i realised...i dun really have an answer. this isn't one of those moppy, self-depreciation time but i really do tink that we have to think bout these things and i guess ive kinda hit the 'fork in the road' u kno...oh well i guess i have a bit of time to tink bout it rite...:) I use to think that its all in our attitudes...actually i still think that...and so i've decided to look at it all in a positive frame of mind...well im gg to try really really hard and... just believe. :) n matosh, thanks i am gg to try n look at the simple things in life...to stop complicating things for myself...well trying to at least :) and to ur question if a guy n gal can just be frens...well i think definitely...but i guess there still needs to be a line drawn...cuz yeah it is kinda true that guys and girls can misread certain things...but the thing is...the one thing that really sticks out in my mind is what someone once said to me....'marry your bestfriend, not your boyfriend' which i guess works for guys too ...'marry ur bestfriend, not your girlfriend'. when she said that to me, i didnt quite get what she meant...and she said, well...u should be marrying your bestfriend, someone you can talk to, laugh with, cry with and just be YOURSELF. And i will always remember that...so i guess different ppl have different ideas on that u kno...and i've heard many stories as well where guys fall for their girl best-friend so i guess this is a grey area where there can be no 'real' definition, its up to individuals...:)
have u ever felt like u just werent meant to feel a certain way but u do nonetheless...then u start to wonder...is this God's way of testing me?? i duno...thats how i kinda feel atm...that God's testing me but i dun really kno if im gg nuts or wat u kno...have u ever felt so bad bout feeling so good??ok sorri..not making sense once again...but yeah...im happy bcuz He has blessed me with good friends and well for another specific reason but i feel bad cuz im not allowed to...kinda...ummm...aiyah ok its getting late...cant make it anymore...brain shutting dowwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..................hehehe...
sigh....got to start doing work soon...man!!! this is so sad....but im gg to take it easy for a while...dun care lah...heheh...bad i kno but really need to take a bit of a break hey...:P
Good luck u guys for those of u having exams...u guys are gg to do well...simply because He is behind u alwayz :)
nites all :)
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