Saturday, June 21, 2003
Just came back from a children's church meeting...a rather long one I must say!!! But all worthwhile because...it was for Him...:) Kimmy has actually stepped down from the supervisory role, and now Uncle Peter and his wife has actually taken over...which i totally understand..I mean she's a mother of 3 with a new born baby, and soon to go back to work again..no wonder...I mean Im kinda exhausted just talking about it...:) But man, her baby is soooooooooooooooooo cute, today A/Rinda was holding her and she was sitting next to me...and obviously I just had to make those funi faces at caitlin (the baby's name i hope thats how u spell it) anywaz, then she started to giggle and laugh...man...cute cute cute cute cute!!!..kekeke. It was a rather productive day and the agenda was set out vely clearly which was really really good i must say...however, as previously noted in my vely first children's church meeting...there's politics everywhere...and i mean everywhere...of all the ministries i sort of thought that the children's ministry MIGHT be excluded but trust me...its not!! So i guess i've come to expect that in all the ministries except for maybe ushering??! i duno but I hope so :) But after today i kno this, and that is I want to leave all the politics of this ministry to the adults...i mean i would help out as much as i can and i do but as for the politic stuff...im gg to leave that to the adults...why?? well, because im doing this simply because i love the children...i mean i really really do. i've only started this year in the children's ministry but when i taught my group of kids last month,...i have to say i fell in love with them...not everyone of them mind u cuz..well...they r still kids rite...so some might tend to be more naughty than others but u still love them nonetheless trust me :) But i have to say i've actually missed them...like today i saw one of them...Jason...n he immediately came up to me and sat down with his puzzle book n i tried to help him get some of the words... i just mean that...i miss helping them, talking to them, just being with them. And some may think well its just your maternal instinct (and as matosh would put it when we get to 22 and above...apparently we all experience this maternal instinct..?!? kekekek) but i guess for me it was a lot more than that when i first thot of joining the ministry. For me, on a more personal note, well....there could be a slight possibility that i may not either have children or want to have children...the reason...well ...its a medical one. And yes i have prayed for my future partner to please not have this particular condition and i guess its only according to His will that our future if we can have children or not is in His hands. Im not bitter or sad because i believe that e'thing happens for a reason...n if im really not able to have children...well i guess i take great joy in serving in the children ministry and at first thats what inspired me to join the ministry, because i wanted to serve Him more and also because i have such a passion for children. They really r our future and more than anything their minds are so fragile n so innocent...which is why there must be more care taken when we are trying to teach them God's word and to teach them the right ways. I must say i really do love the children in the ministry and this love has grown from me wanting to serve our Lord more and also because children can bring such joy into your life, when they smile at me i kno that its because they are happy and that brings such comfort to me. But more than anything i kno that we are teaching them Jesus's way....and at such a young age to be exposed to God's word i think it truly is a benefit because i had wish that i had come to kno the Lord much earlier...but i guess there's always a time for e'thing. Now, all i want to say is that i pray and hope that God will continue to speak to Uncle Peter and his wife, and guide them, teach them as they lead the children's ministry because i believe that God really has a vision for this ministry and it is going to mould the children to lead His army in the future, for them to rise up and take charge. And i urge all of u to please pray for the children's ministry too, for them to continue to grow, and for the leaders to continue to listen to God and His commands and to follow Him and do His will.
After the meeting, i met up wif an old fren, not old i suppose but she was at fcc but she's now attending another church. It was good to meet up with her and just catch up. But i must say, as i sed to her as well that im kinda glad she's not at fcc. Not that i dun wan her to be mind u. But well,...like i told her im glad she's not because she's not involve in the politics of our church. Some of u might not see that there is but believe me...its there. And im glad because she's in a way an outsider, and i suppose when i confide in her, she is able to give me an objective response. And im thankful for that because i think we all sometimes need an objective view. Its very easy esp now for us to be in our comfort zone and stay there, esp when we hang around the same friends all the time which is fine cuz i do that but i suppose sometimes its good to find out what someone else's perspective is on the matter, who isn't in the centre of it who isn't involved in someway and perhaps someone who doesnt have anything to gain. So thank you my friend :) I hope we get to catch up once again when we both come bk from where we r gg :) take care :)
And to lilabella, i use to think too that i was in love with the idea of being in love...but then i realise this, we should looking for God's kind of love. This means i guess realising that when u are in a r/s, e'thing that you do should be in honour of Him, your love together should be a celebration of His love for us i guess that way is how i see the diff between me just liking the whole idea of having someone there and having that warm fuzzy feeling and knowing that what i have is love. Because it is all in honour of Him, i believe that the love u share with your partner should be a testimony as well of His love, His grace and His mercy. And gal believe me i sometimes cant tell the diff too bout the type of feelings i have...u should know me..kekeke...but i guess the diff i try to see now is do i see myself with this person down the road?? Do i see myself marrying this person, starting a family with him, and growing old with him...i guess if the answer is yes...a definite yes...without doubts than i guess theres ur answer. As for me, i guess afta talking to a fren, im just miss taking care of someone, doing stuff for that someone and just caring for them and knowing that they will care for me too. And i guess im still learning the word 'love', and as simple as that word may sound to some, trust me its not. Well at least not the way God wants us to love. His kind of Love is unconditional, and eternal thats the kind of love i desire for truly...i guess this book called 'a love worth giving' really inspired me its by Max Lucado and i encourage u all to read it. if nothing else, it shows us just how great our God truly is.
Thank You Lord, Thank You lord for being the amazing God that You are, for loving me unconditionally even when i dun deserve Your love, You love me nonetheless...thank You.
After the meeting, i met up wif an old fren, not old i suppose but she was at fcc but she's now attending another church. It was good to meet up with her and just catch up. But i must say, as i sed to her as well that im kinda glad she's not at fcc. Not that i dun wan her to be mind u. But well,...like i told her im glad she's not because she's not involve in the politics of our church. Some of u might not see that there is but believe me...its there. And im glad because she's in a way an outsider, and i suppose when i confide in her, she is able to give me an objective response. And im thankful for that because i think we all sometimes need an objective view. Its very easy esp now for us to be in our comfort zone and stay there, esp when we hang around the same friends all the time which is fine cuz i do that but i suppose sometimes its good to find out what someone else's perspective is on the matter, who isn't in the centre of it who isn't involved in someway and perhaps someone who doesnt have anything to gain. So thank you my friend :) I hope we get to catch up once again when we both come bk from where we r gg :) take care :)
And to lilabella, i use to think too that i was in love with the idea of being in love...but then i realise this, we should looking for God's kind of love. This means i guess realising that when u are in a r/s, e'thing that you do should be in honour of Him, your love together should be a celebration of His love for us i guess that way is how i see the diff between me just liking the whole idea of having someone there and having that warm fuzzy feeling and knowing that what i have is love. Because it is all in honour of Him, i believe that the love u share with your partner should be a testimony as well of His love, His grace and His mercy. And gal believe me i sometimes cant tell the diff too bout the type of feelings i have...u should know me..kekeke...but i guess the diff i try to see now is do i see myself with this person down the road?? Do i see myself marrying this person, starting a family with him, and growing old with him...i guess if the answer is yes...a definite yes...without doubts than i guess theres ur answer. As for me, i guess afta talking to a fren, im just miss taking care of someone, doing stuff for that someone and just caring for them and knowing that they will care for me too. And i guess im still learning the word 'love', and as simple as that word may sound to some, trust me its not. Well at least not the way God wants us to love. His kind of Love is unconditional, and eternal thats the kind of love i desire for truly...i guess this book called 'a love worth giving' really inspired me its by Max Lucado and i encourage u all to read it. if nothing else, it shows us just how great our God truly is.
Thank You Lord, Thank You lord for being the amazing God that You are, for loving me unconditionally even when i dun deserve Your love, You love me nonetheless...thank You.
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