Friday, June 06, 2003
FUN FUN FUN!!
Just came home from a nite out with the gals and i was just reminded how good that feels :) not that time spent with any other people wasnt good but theres just something about having a girly nite out on the town...painting the town red as some might say...!! You get to do all the girly stuff u kno...eat things that u kno can make u fat but u dun care...and talking bout issues...that well..lets just say guys just shouldnt be there...heheh :) but yeah i had a blast...n it was the most fun i've had in a long long time :) realy glad i wen out ...hopefully we can make this a regular thing.
well...seeing as i've just read Miss lilabeth and Melly's blog...i'll just throw in my tiny weeny speck of thought. i was recently reminded about something bout myself. i am a die-hard romantic at heart...always have...n despite having gone through a few rough patches...always will be. :) i remember this one quote that i believe i actually put on my blog...but seeing i cant access my archives for reasons that i dun kno...hahaha....i think it went along the lines of something like..."if someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he/she couldnt stay, dont cry too much..just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he/she made you happy even for a while." This quote pulled me through a lot of times when i feel i couldnt do it. when i thot life jus sux!! and my love life...well WAT love life rite! haha but really it is just soooo true...i now realised that for watever reasons that person had come into your life...he/she came into your life for a reason...and even if he/she couldnt stay...just be glad that you had those times, those memories, and hold on to them...and even if it gets a little fuzzy over time...its ok..because no matter where you go, or how old you get...that person will always have a special place in your heart. i truly believe that we all go through our own grieving process...and for some it takes a week, for others it can take a long long time. but i tink we all NEED to go through that grieving process...i kno its not exactly like that person has died or watever but in a way....the relationship with that someone has.
And yes i have made a vow, and most of you know that anywaz and truly it doesnt work for most people, and thats fine. i guess for me, it was more a promise to God because i needed Him, it may be selfish but i really needed Him more than i needed anybody in my life. and by dedicating my life to Him even for this small period...i kno that i can stay true to Him and me, because i kno that if i was to get into a relationship right now...it wouldnt be fair...to me or to the person. i realised that in order for my relationship with whoever it may be to work, it should honour Him, all that we do should honour Him, our love should be a celebration of His love for us. and thats how i like to see it, that our commitment to one another isnt about lust, or those puppy feelings that we get but because we commit to sharing our lives with one another, walking with Him together, growing together and learning from each other. And before any of that can happen i must first look within myself, and see that im ok....that im able to do that...like REALLY do that. i kno deep in my heart that im at the point in my life where im ready for a commitment and a lasting one...hehe...but really i do mean that.. which is why i believe that for my next relationship to work, i need to take some time out and assess myself, where im at and wat i want. and as much of a romantic as i am i dun wan to be consume by wat the world thinks of love, i want to be loved by His kind of love and thats the kind of love im desiring for, hungering for.
i kno i often get myself into situations where im most likely to get hurt...ummm...cant disclose too much...hehee but whenever i feel im in that situation i always try to remind myself this..."you know you love someone when you want them to have their happiness even if it means that you're not a part of it." i truly believe that, when u truly care and love someone that much, you will want them to be happy regardless of wat it is even if it means you're not a part of their lives. Sometimes i know it's so much easier to say and much harder to do but i do believe that i'm capable of it...actually i kno i am, more like a 'been there...done that..hehe. And i believe that this is the most selfless thing one person can do for another.
Sometimes i wish this dating and relationship stuff was so much easier u kno...couldnt it be just boy meets girl, boy likes girl, boy ask girl out, girl says yes, boy likes dating girl (2 yrs preferably according to Ps Prince...n yes Matosh i kno ur laughing rite now), boy marries girl. but i guess life just wasnt meant to be easy, its meant to be challenging so that we can grow and learn and be stronger than the day before.
I do believe in prayer, and especially in this area of our lives i believe that even if we havent quite found the ONE, that we should continue to prayer for that 'someone'. i know this might sound weird, but i really do believe that in our prayer if we just prayer for the 'someone's' personal walk with Him, for their safety, for them to have the discernment to recognise us as we recognise them and for that day to come where we will meet he or she. ok, this might not make sense to most but anywaz i tink it is kinda important....ok...brain has failed to function hehee....time to sleep...take care all...til next time :)
Just came home from a nite out with the gals and i was just reminded how good that feels :) not that time spent with any other people wasnt good but theres just something about having a girly nite out on the town...painting the town red as some might say...!! You get to do all the girly stuff u kno...eat things that u kno can make u fat but u dun care...and talking bout issues...that well..lets just say guys just shouldnt be there...heheh :) but yeah i had a blast...n it was the most fun i've had in a long long time :) realy glad i wen out ...hopefully we can make this a regular thing.
well...seeing as i've just read Miss lilabeth and Melly's blog...i'll just throw in my tiny weeny speck of thought. i was recently reminded about something bout myself. i am a die-hard romantic at heart...always have...n despite having gone through a few rough patches...always will be. :) i remember this one quote that i believe i actually put on my blog...but seeing i cant access my archives for reasons that i dun kno...hahaha....i think it went along the lines of something like..."if someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he/she couldnt stay, dont cry too much..just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he/she made you happy even for a while." This quote pulled me through a lot of times when i feel i couldnt do it. when i thot life jus sux!! and my love life...well WAT love life rite! haha but really it is just soooo true...i now realised that for watever reasons that person had come into your life...he/she came into your life for a reason...and even if he/she couldnt stay...just be glad that you had those times, those memories, and hold on to them...and even if it gets a little fuzzy over time...its ok..because no matter where you go, or how old you get...that person will always have a special place in your heart. i truly believe that we all go through our own grieving process...and for some it takes a week, for others it can take a long long time. but i tink we all NEED to go through that grieving process...i kno its not exactly like that person has died or watever but in a way....the relationship with that someone has.
And yes i have made a vow, and most of you know that anywaz and truly it doesnt work for most people, and thats fine. i guess for me, it was more a promise to God because i needed Him, it may be selfish but i really needed Him more than i needed anybody in my life. and by dedicating my life to Him even for this small period...i kno that i can stay true to Him and me, because i kno that if i was to get into a relationship right now...it wouldnt be fair...to me or to the person. i realised that in order for my relationship with whoever it may be to work, it should honour Him, all that we do should honour Him, our love should be a celebration of His love for us. and thats how i like to see it, that our commitment to one another isnt about lust, or those puppy feelings that we get but because we commit to sharing our lives with one another, walking with Him together, growing together and learning from each other. And before any of that can happen i must first look within myself, and see that im ok....that im able to do that...like REALLY do that. i kno deep in my heart that im at the point in my life where im ready for a commitment and a lasting one...hehe...but really i do mean that.. which is why i believe that for my next relationship to work, i need to take some time out and assess myself, where im at and wat i want. and as much of a romantic as i am i dun wan to be consume by wat the world thinks of love, i want to be loved by His kind of love and thats the kind of love im desiring for, hungering for.
i kno i often get myself into situations where im most likely to get hurt...ummm...cant disclose too much...hehee but whenever i feel im in that situation i always try to remind myself this..."you know you love someone when you want them to have their happiness even if it means that you're not a part of it." i truly believe that, when u truly care and love someone that much, you will want them to be happy regardless of wat it is even if it means you're not a part of their lives. Sometimes i know it's so much easier to say and much harder to do but i do believe that i'm capable of it...actually i kno i am, more like a 'been there...done that..hehe. And i believe that this is the most selfless thing one person can do for another.
Sometimes i wish this dating and relationship stuff was so much easier u kno...couldnt it be just boy meets girl, boy likes girl, boy ask girl out, girl says yes, boy likes dating girl (2 yrs preferably according to Ps Prince...n yes Matosh i kno ur laughing rite now), boy marries girl. but i guess life just wasnt meant to be easy, its meant to be challenging so that we can grow and learn and be stronger than the day before.
I do believe in prayer, and especially in this area of our lives i believe that even if we havent quite found the ONE, that we should continue to prayer for that 'someone'. i know this might sound weird, but i really do believe that in our prayer if we just prayer for the 'someone's' personal walk with Him, for their safety, for them to have the discernment to recognise us as we recognise them and for that day to come where we will meet he or she. ok, this might not make sense to most but anywaz i tink it is kinda important....ok...brain has failed to function hehee....time to sleep...take care all...til next time :)
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