Friday, March 14, 2003
i must say this coming week is gg to be so
tiring for me...i can see it already...every nite
i would probably just pass out on my bed...
not sure which house il be in but one of the beds
anyway...wondering why?? im moving HOUSE!!!!
finally..yes...whoohoo!!! but il have to juggle btwn
moving and studying at hte same time..not sure
how im suppose to do that but i guess i just do..
althou i feel like im just bluffing my way thru it but
*sigh* cant be helped right now i guess....wat to do
wat to do...
yesterday was our first cell for the year...YAY!!! i was
so happy esp during worship..i duno why..but i love
singing to our Lord just worshipping in song just
gives me such joy and such a sense of peace. and
i know tat wenever i am worshipping Him i just feel
so incredibly happy..like all my thots...good and bad
but mostly bad just flows away...all ifeel and see is
Him n frankly tts all i wan these days...to feel His
presence...and i guess talking to Julia the other day
really helped...i mean i feel such a sense of peace
after talking to her i guess its just knowing that im not
the only one...n that she just reminded me that yeah
in times of trial and adversities that althou its hard
as it always is...that we need to remember Him n His
grace n mercy, His kindness, His love, and to never
forget tt He's always there...even wen we cant feel Him
or see Him..He's there alongside us n all we need to do
is to let ourselves hear Him, let ourselves be connected to
Him. i guess something tt Julia said to me that really
stick in my mind was this...that sometimes we cant tell
the difference btwn wen we are trying to be healed and wen
we are just getting cold...(not sure if u guys will get it but
neva mnd) anyway i realised that yeah its really true cuz
sometimes i feel like yeah im saying one thing,..yes God
heal me blah blah blah..but my actions speak another. n
i guess im trying to correct tt now...i guess i realise theres
no point in saying yes God heal me n all that wen im not
willing to let HIm in, into my heart in order for Him to heal
but i guess sometimes its just hard but im really trying
n tts the best i can do for now.
Pastor's Benny Ho's seminar on wednesday was just
simply brilliant...funi that..it was about simplicity in
our lives...one thing that stuck in my mind was the
simplicity in faith. we often forget that God is there
wif His outreach hands waiting to catch us if only we
trusted Him enuf to let go. but often we dun..bcuz
we complicate our faith in Him...we often make rash
promises or words that says if I do this...God will do
this ...but u see thats just not true bcuz He will be there
no matter wat we do or say...simply bcuz He is a
faithful God. and tts something i know i tend to forget
and i was just reminded of how simple it can really be
if only we let it. i know its not easy to do cuz its part
of human nature for us to worry...to over-analyse...to
think too much...but i guess after all that...all we need
to remember is that He is there...wif his loving hands
waiting to catch us wen and if we fall. that just really
brought comfort to me wen i was reading that part. i
guess we all have our issues, fears, worries, hindrances
but its just such a comfort to know that He is always
there to catch us to hold us wen we can no longer
support ourselves wen we feel we no longer have the
strength...i just feel so comforted by that knowledge.
btw i just realise something... i mention 'God' a lot
in my blog huh...but tats a good thing!!!! im so glad
like i feel like wow...u know...hes really part of who
i am. anyway..getting late...have to get up early
tm...for the house..so shall leave u all here...
later.
tiring for me...i can see it already...every nite
i would probably just pass out on my bed...
not sure which house il be in but one of the beds
anyway...wondering why?? im moving HOUSE!!!!
finally..yes...whoohoo!!! but il have to juggle btwn
moving and studying at hte same time..not sure
how im suppose to do that but i guess i just do..
althou i feel like im just bluffing my way thru it but
*sigh* cant be helped right now i guess....wat to do
wat to do...
yesterday was our first cell for the year...YAY!!! i was
so happy esp during worship..i duno why..but i love
singing to our Lord just worshipping in song just
gives me such joy and such a sense of peace. and
i know tat wenever i am worshipping Him i just feel
so incredibly happy..like all my thots...good and bad
but mostly bad just flows away...all ifeel and see is
Him n frankly tts all i wan these days...to feel His
presence...and i guess talking to Julia the other day
really helped...i mean i feel such a sense of peace
after talking to her i guess its just knowing that im not
the only one...n that she just reminded me that yeah
in times of trial and adversities that althou its hard
as it always is...that we need to remember Him n His
grace n mercy, His kindness, His love, and to never
forget tt He's always there...even wen we cant feel Him
or see Him..He's there alongside us n all we need to do
is to let ourselves hear Him, let ourselves be connected to
Him. i guess something tt Julia said to me that really
stick in my mind was this...that sometimes we cant tell
the difference btwn wen we are trying to be healed and wen
we are just getting cold...(not sure if u guys will get it but
neva mnd) anyway i realised that yeah its really true cuz
sometimes i feel like yeah im saying one thing,..yes God
heal me blah blah blah..but my actions speak another. n
i guess im trying to correct tt now...i guess i realise theres
no point in saying yes God heal me n all that wen im not
willing to let HIm in, into my heart in order for Him to heal
but i guess sometimes its just hard but im really trying
n tts the best i can do for now.
Pastor's Benny Ho's seminar on wednesday was just
simply brilliant...funi that..it was about simplicity in
our lives...one thing that stuck in my mind was the
simplicity in faith. we often forget that God is there
wif His outreach hands waiting to catch us if only we
trusted Him enuf to let go. but often we dun..bcuz
we complicate our faith in Him...we often make rash
promises or words that says if I do this...God will do
this ...but u see thats just not true bcuz He will be there
no matter wat we do or say...simply bcuz He is a
faithful God. and tts something i know i tend to forget
and i was just reminded of how simple it can really be
if only we let it. i know its not easy to do cuz its part
of human nature for us to worry...to over-analyse...to
think too much...but i guess after all that...all we need
to remember is that He is there...wif his loving hands
waiting to catch us wen and if we fall. that just really
brought comfort to me wen i was reading that part. i
guess we all have our issues, fears, worries, hindrances
but its just such a comfort to know that He is always
there to catch us to hold us wen we can no longer
support ourselves wen we feel we no longer have the
strength...i just feel so comforted by that knowledge.
btw i just realise something... i mention 'God' a lot
in my blog huh...but tats a good thing!!!! im so glad
like i feel like wow...u know...hes really part of who
i am. anyway..getting late...have to get up early
tm...for the house..so shall leave u all here...
later.
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