Saturday, February 22, 2003
well ...it is now 2:31am on the 23rd of
february...i've officially turn 21....umm...
it was a rather uneventful day where i spend
a great deal of time in a church meeting...
but tats ok..for me this was neva a really
special day to begin wif. some of my frens who
are reading this are like why...why do u feel
this way???well quite simply put...i just do.
there isn't a scientific reason or a logical,
practical reason...by the way...do remember
this is like in the middle of the nite if my
sentence structure seem rather warped i do
apologise. hahaha....anyway...but i did enjoy
tonite where i saw some of my frens...wen to a frens
house and talked for a while which was nice.
anyway i guess today was made worse by the
realisation that there seems to be a cycle for me
where i seem to attract ppl who are bad for me.
either that or i epitomise the word 'dejavue'
seriously...the point is this, i value my friendship
wif my frens seriously...and they mean a lot to me.
thats just the way i am. and yes they are humans,
they are flawed...and i do accept that but wat i cant
is dishonesty. or maybe we just have very different
views of the word dishonesty. i duno....basically i
know i wasnt the greatest company tonite around
a particular person but i guess until that person decides
im actually someone worth treating a little better
than the way im being treated now then i guess
his words do indeed mean very little. Pastor
Benny Ho once said in his sermon, "action
speaks louder than words....words without
action are just words not meaning much." and
u see i've always always believe in that and when
ppl say to u yes ur frenship means a lot to me...blah
blah blah...well it doesnt mean a whole lot without
actions backing it up...or at least tats how i feel about
it.
to that someone...if u've ever wondered why i ever liked
u the answer had always been very simple...but u just neva
realised it...i had liked u just the way u are, the good and
the bad, u may not have but i saw more than wat u were
willing to see in urself if u only gave urself half a chance.
i doubt this person ever reads my blog but thats ok...
he will neva know but i guess the bottomline is i do. and
even now it doesnt really matter anyway...
february...i've officially turn 21....umm...
it was a rather uneventful day where i spend
a great deal of time in a church meeting...
but tats ok..for me this was neva a really
special day to begin wif. some of my frens who
are reading this are like why...why do u feel
this way???well quite simply put...i just do.
there isn't a scientific reason or a logical,
practical reason...by the way...do remember
this is like in the middle of the nite if my
sentence structure seem rather warped i do
apologise. hahaha....anyway...but i did enjoy
tonite where i saw some of my frens...wen to a frens
house and talked for a while which was nice.
anyway i guess today was made worse by the
realisation that there seems to be a cycle for me
where i seem to attract ppl who are bad for me.
either that or i epitomise the word 'dejavue'
seriously...the point is this, i value my friendship
wif my frens seriously...and they mean a lot to me.
thats just the way i am. and yes they are humans,
they are flawed...and i do accept that but wat i cant
is dishonesty. or maybe we just have very different
views of the word dishonesty. i duno....basically i
know i wasnt the greatest company tonite around
a particular person but i guess until that person decides
im actually someone worth treating a little better
than the way im being treated now then i guess
his words do indeed mean very little. Pastor
Benny Ho once said in his sermon, "action
speaks louder than words....words without
action are just words not meaning much." and
u see i've always always believe in that and when
ppl say to u yes ur frenship means a lot to me...blah
blah blah...well it doesnt mean a whole lot without
actions backing it up...or at least tats how i feel about
it.
to that someone...if u've ever wondered why i ever liked
u the answer had always been very simple...but u just neva
realised it...i had liked u just the way u are, the good and
the bad, u may not have but i saw more than wat u were
willing to see in urself if u only gave urself half a chance.
i doubt this person ever reads my blog but thats ok...
he will neva know but i guess the bottomline is i do. and
even now it doesnt really matter anyway...
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