My JoURnEY.......

came to a realisation the other day....
when 'bad' things happen to us for
watever reason it may have happend or
why it had happen if its to do wif our parents
our frens or our partners...that really everything
just comes down to our attitude. in how we deal
wif issues, do we throw a tantrum and expect
everything to be fine after that or do we take the
positive side adn think well wat can i learn from this
and wat am i really focusing on...that's something
i;ve come to realise after looking within myself and
questioning why do i feel the way i do?? my lack
of ability to trust someone or anyone for that matter
had really boiled down to my parents and it wasnt
til the other day where i completely lost it in front
of a particular fren of mine which im truly sorry kel for
putting you through that im sure you could have had a
better nite...but i did realise after that i was focusing
on the wrong thing and why..well i guess bcuz i had the wrong
attitude the whole time...i wasnt thinking positively or
focusing on HIm and well i realised thats something i
really have to change...so i;ve decided that my new
year resolution is that..to change and be a better person
for it...i had to believe that someday the love i always thot
and dreamt about is possible and that someone whom i
can trust completely and utterly will be found. i had to
believe that otherwise my existence on this world would
be pretty mundane if i didnt have absolute faith in my Lord
that he will provide for me and that He will only provide the
best for me.."Ask and you shall receive.." so that was my
prayer request and will prob be my prayer request for a long
time to come...